--master life--

dear me myself and i,,

i know u r strong enough nuraini,
stay strong and always do!

i know--
you always asked yourself
how actually i should live?
how actually i should act?
how actually i should react?
how actually i should say?
how actually i should do?
damn it! im tireddd!!

i know--
sometimes you feel like you want to run away
far far away from this reality
far far away
can I?
can I?
I dont know how to live like this!
i dont know

I feel like
People around me seems too cruel
seems too selfish
seems too bad
herghhhhhhhhhhh!!!

I know its wrong--
to judge people just like that
but i just cant stand it anymore


aku penat!
aku cuma mahu bahagia
it is wrongg??

--pisau--

depan pandang senyuman manis kau
pusing belakang kau asah pisau
sampai masa pisau kau guna

tikam biar didada
biar jantungku terhenti
biar mati

biar dialam sana
baru ku tahu
pisau itu milik siapa

SILENT

diam aku kali ini
bukan kerana marah atau apa
cuma aku kecewa
kecewa kerna aku sedar aku bukan
bukan sepertimana yang aku harapkan kau rasa

cukup
diam aku kali ini
untuk memberi kau ruang
mungkin bahagia kau dengan insan lain
kerna aku mula sedar
kau selalu memilih mereka berbanding aku

tuhan, bantu aku
kuatkan hati aku
terlalu banyak dosa aku padamu
ampuni aku Ya Allah
bantu aku kembali ke jalanmu

aku terlalu penat mengharap cinta manusia
yang akhirnya hanya beri aku kecewa

untuk kau,
aku betul2x redha kali ini
aku dapat rasa
kau tidak sebahagia mana ketika kita bersama

dan mereka selalu saja menang berbanding aku
aku pasrah.

if u can understand for once--

When people make you feel unwanted..

don't leave them to make them feel sad or guilty..

they won't..

leave because you no longer have a reason to stay..

sometimes you have to be strong for yourself..

what's mean to be will end up good and what's not,won't.. 

love is worth fighting for but sometimes you can't be the only one fighting..

at times people need to fight for you..

if they don't,you just have to move on 

and realize what you gave them was more than they were willing to give you 

and than they deserve..

betapa sakitnya apa yang ku rasa
tuhan kuatkanlah hatiku yang terluka
semoga ku bisa untuk melupakannya
kerana ku masih menyintainya

"BENEFITS"

sentap bout dis ayat i found in facebook.
honestly, before dis if i did smthing to anyone,
i always think bout what the benefits i will get or something bout balasan mcm tu.
shame on me then.

but better late than never ryte?
so, for this early year of 2014,,
ill try to change my attitude about dis

balasan dari Allah lg bermakna than people itself kann..
tapi itulaa,, this kind of thing, talk bout keikhlasan jgk..

tolong aku Ya Allah,,
ikhlaskan diri ini untuk setiap apa yang aku lakukan :')



aku cuma mahu bahagia..
bahagia dengan membuat org lain gembira.
especially to my family, friendss and him.
InsyaAllah..:')



xoxo,,
memyselfni